I'm not even sure how to start this blog or what its overall purpose is, but I wanted to share a realisation I had this morning which has had quite a powerful effect upon me.

I woke up stressing about a few things and, as I would normally, I began working through what the thoughts were and where they were coming from (limiting beliefs and old memories etc). And I heard myself saying it a few times "I refuse to ....". The minute i realised that I was refusing it became so much easier to get to the root of it, which I shall endeavour to put into words!

Our Ego is there to protect us and keep us safe, but it's kind of gone into overdrive. It does what it does in order to help us feel safe and so when you encounter a situation that feels unsafe the Ego will do it's absolute utmost to stop you moving further into it for fear of being hurt or damaged. The Ego doesn't understand that you are always safe, no matter what happens. It views your current life as "all there is" and so will try to preserve it as much as it can. Even if it means keeping you in a place of stress and stagnation! It's like a child that doesn't understand that we have an inherent need that is part of who we are that craves, desires, and longs for new experiences. It doesn't understand that by having new experiences we remember more and more of who we really are.

And so, like a stubborn child, the Ego refuses to let go of its position. It fights like a cornered wild cat - thrashing and lashing out and causing itself more injury than were it to come out of the corner and experience this wonderful new thing.

Thinking about how you deal with that kind of cat, it's common sense to try and calm it and show and prove to it that it's safe. But when it comes to the Ego... oh no, that's not what we do! We get angry with it. We try to force it. We drag it kicking and screaming out of the corner only to lose our grip and watch it go running back to the corner even more determined to stay there. It absolutely refuses to come out.

So where's all this going? No idea to be honest! I'm sharing an experience with you that may help you realise any areas in your life where you are refusing to move, change, or shift, because it feels unsafe. Ignoring that refusal just exacerbates it and makes the pain and anguish multiply. It has been said that we learn much through suffering... but I'm here to tell you that you can learn a darn site lot more through relief and joy.

First step is acknowledging that you're refusing to do something, then the rest of the "tangled knot" will unravel easily, allowing you to soothe away any stress and angst and do what you've always wanted. One of the best ways I've found of acknowledging and releasing the energy of "I refuse" is using EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique).

Enjoy life and all its experiences. That's what it was created for!

Affirmation for this: Just for today, I refuse not to enjoy the day!